• PANTAREI APPROACH

    I work as a certified practitioner of the Pantarei Approach.

    Sessions with me are about restoring a sense of agency, trust and confidence in yourself and how you choose to live.
    We use a psycho-somatic approach to connect with unique strengths and resources in your system, meet emotional wounds with fierce compassion and allow the body to self-heal. Not merely to release or to “cope”, but to dare to feel what hurts and (re)develop the resources to transform it.

    Reclaim your birthright: feel at home in who you are.

    Sessions & More

  • PERMACULTURE

    I work with Cityplot - an international collective for professional urban food growers, educators and permaculture designers.

    I believe humans can actually have a positive impact on their environment. By learning from Nature, we can create productive ecosystems that meet human needs while regenerating the environment around us - creating the conditions for all life to thrive.

    Projects

  • POETRY

    I write poetry to digest, release and express my experience of being a human in a world I care for deeply.

    Everything I love most features here!

    Poems (coming soon)

Immense amounts of spinach at our garden plot “de kever tuin” in Berlin

about me…

I was born and raised in Bali, Indonesia – an island that transformed right beneath my feet. From tropical wilderness to top tourist destination, Bali’s beaches, mountains and skies have grown more crowded, more grey and less alive. As with many Bali kids, this heart-break breeds a sense responsibility that’s both courageous and despairing.

A photo of me (and my beloved, Paul) by our friend and colleague Lucie Mahu.

I left home at 17, highly independent and determined, to study at Cultural Analysis and critical theory at University of Amsterdam. I focused on environmental humanities and learned to recognise the systems of domination that try to dictate our relationship to land, ourselves and each other. I saw and understood more, but felt increasingly helpless. At the same time, psycho-somatic signals including panic attacks and spontaneous flash-backs to early childhood were demanding that I attend to helplessness in more areas than one. I couldn’t ‘fix this’ - I was failing, I was cracking.

A well-timed coincidence led me to the working room of somatic practitioner Amanda McRae. 8 years later, Amanda still mentors me. I learnt from her that trying to protect myself from helplessness was harder on my body and my soul than cracking. I’ve been mourning since. I think I only love life more. I’m reclaiming responsibility as my “ability to respond”. In the meantime, I’ve been busy.

I trained in Permaculture (designing regenerative systems) the year I graduated University and moved to Berlin to train as a somatic practitioner via The Pantarei Approach in 2020. I’ve been working and training in both fields since. As of 2025, I’ve finished Advanced training in the Pantarei Approach and have moved back to Amsterdam with my partner Paul, where we give both give 1:1 sessions from our home in Oost. I continue learning and working in Permaculture with the collective Cityplot, contributing to several projects that have social and ecological regeneration at their core. I believe somatic work can connect people to what is truly meaningful to them, what they need to respond too, and builds the sense of agency needed to go for it; working with people and in gardens is part of my response.

I long to live life learning and responding from a deep love for the planet and all the beings who live here together.